Changes?

Why do i feel that everyone is moving forward and i am stuck in the same space or rather falling backwards. I need to get out more and experience stuff. But i am restrained. Don't tell me what i should do. I do know what i am doing. It's about compromising and accomodating. Sacrifice maybe. However, at times, the pressure within me need an outlet. I've been repressing myself.

Having similar dreams lately. It's affecting me. After like 2 years. Slow damage arh.

The Search.

Searching for the wisdom to lead me on in life.
Searching for the eyes that can bright up my life.
Searching for the shoulders that i can lean my troubles on.
Searching for the hand that can hold me when i fell.
Searching for the legs that can walk together with me.

kindly update me if such person exists. Haha.

Erm.. Just bought a new laptop after several considerations. Guess its better since i'll be on the run soon. Wanted to get the the pink dell but out of stock. haha. So ended up with Compaq which is compact to my liking and within my budget range. But the colour is too dull. I need colours to brighten up my life!

Random thoughts

It's been a tiring week. Working 3 mornings in a row and having to take care of the same patients one of which takes up 1hr just to do his dressing. Pros and Cons. Pros in the sense that i know my patients better to detect any abnormalities fast just like my 93yr old uncle who was able to be chatting away n was happy to have his beard shaved. Hope he's better now. Work has been fine. Getting used to the routine and having to guide the newly gradutes now. To think i'm no longer a 'new girl'. Haha.

Starting school soon in 3 weeks time. Was quite angry with the school for not informing me about the orientaion earlier which i don't think should be the way. I even have to call them to find out about it not to mention my email being ignored. That's not very professional. Haiz.

So my life will be like work, school, and home soon. So friends, do not wonder if your already missing friend has gone vanished from thin air. Ha.

Happy Birthday to Pomx2!

It's been 2 years. Our house has become liveier because of her. She has become part of us. Whenever we can, we try to include her in our activities. Although she's only a dog, but there are lessons that we can learn from her.

The never-say-die attitude in the way that she always stay and wait for food till we finally finish actually speaks of success comes with persistence. Her persistence is what i actually admires.

The happiness that she shows when we get home even though we've left her alone for the whole day reminds us how easily satisfied she is. As long as the owner is home, she's happy. Why can't human be easily satisfied?. Be glad with what you have.

The lovingness that she always give by licking and jumping on our knees in return makes us dote on her more. When u give and gets a return, that will makes you give more.

I may sound like a dog fanatic. But when you observe closely enough, you will agree with what i said. There's a reason that you see more canines around nowadays. =)

Mandy Dear ROM

We grew up staying over at each other house. She always took care of me. She'd ride me on a bicycle and go around our neighbourhood. We used to discuss what haircut we want before going to the salon. We wished we will stay next to each other and it came true. We grew up and went our own ways. We met up and still able to talk about everything and anything. She is my cousin, Mandy. Congrats for you getting engaged. May you be happy always. =)

Family. =p

Tricia being grumpy after a long day. haha.

Mellie. When is your turn?.

Happy ahyi. 2nd daughter to get married.

Hoho. Almost all my close cousins are married. It feels weird when it seems like just yesterday when we are still hopping around the playground. Still. happy that my loved ones found their happiness. =)

Tricia. Work.

Tricia my niece : lovable at times, horribly naughty at times. That's kids for you.


Tricia:"Why are you forcing me to take photo with you?" Haha.

Tricia:"Bring me away from this crazy woman!" =p (p.s. actually she's trying to snatch my camera) Blah.

Have been working for around 3 months. Able to handle taking high dependency bed independently now. As for icu beds, we still need supervision. Need to know the dosage and concentration of drugs at the back of my hand. If not, i'll be the one needing resus. haha.

Rushiing to complete my competency checklists before i go on my annual leave. But i'm only left with 2 nights. Haiz.

Pple, i'll be away from 30 oct - date to be comfirmed to you know where. Haha. I've only been travelling around the same places. Friends, we should organise a travelling trip together some time. It'll be fun.

Death

The past week has not been good. The moment i start work yesterday, 3 patients has pass away. One of whom i take care of, the Hakka grandma. Another 2 patients was pending death. In my workline, i should be used to it. But in fact, i have not face with so many deaths before.

The friday a week back, my uncle pass away. My aunt found him already stiff in a sleeping position. There was no pain or grimace in his face. He was not a known hypertensive but coroner's report is heart attack due to high blood pressure.

I was not particularly sad but it feels weird that the person you grow up seeing is not present anymore. I'm more worried about my aunt. I know that she really cares for her husband although he was not at home most of the times. But i also know that she's a strong woman. Her 4 children have been very supportive. My family are also helping in ways that we can. Only in an event like this do you realise the importance of a bonded family. There are still a lot of issues to settle. Hope everything will go well.